dont lose anymore weight! it wont look good.
Hehe. Silly person. I look nearly exactly the same at 135 as I do at around 165. Besides, I like my figure (although I really do want a corset to enhance it some so if anyone wants me for their bestest friend in the whole wide world
size 24,
size 24 in wine jacquard or green dragon or purple brocade,
size 24 in black or purple satin or black or red PVC,
size 24 with black suspender and skirt and
size 24 with black suspender and skirt). But enough of me wanting stuff...but seriously, I wannem!
But just pointing out I look the same and lose inches fairly evenly (not counting stomach bloating and such).
But in case you were wondering, I can't sleep. Maybe I'll see if I can finish the last 164 pages in the book I'm reading before I go out tomorrow. But first, I can't feel my legs so a walk first to wake them up :)
**edit** I forgot to even finish my main purpose for this entry XD
Okay, here it is: I know that with my body I look better bigger (although I also haven't been below 135 in my adult years so this may not be entirely accurate), however I will know based on pictures and video when I'm getting too small for my liking. I don't see myself as huge when I'm not and I don't see myself as skinny when I'm not. If I ever do get too small for my liking, I'll gain weight. I'm not worried about being too big or too small for someone else. I know when I feel comfortable and healthy and when I don't and that's really all I'm concerned about is feeling comfortable and healthy. Do I want to be thin? Yes and no. I would love a tinier waist but I'm happy with large hips. I like hips and feel they are feminine. Will I continue trying to get down to 120 if I feel as though I'm beginning to get too skinny? No. If I can't get that low am I going to have a problem with it? Maybe. But I won't make a big deal about it. Will I try a long water fast (14+days), perhaps. Does that mean if I start to get lightheaded and dizzy or black out I'll stick to it? No. Same with this one meal a day thing. If I really need to I will have more than just one meal a day. I'm not that stupid to risk my health (or life) just to lose weight. And I'm not stupid enough to never be happy with myself. The way I see it you should always be happy in your own skin. Do you have a problem with your body? Do what you can to fix it but if you can't, learn to accept it at the very least. Am I entirely happy with my body? No. I wouldn't mind bigger tits, bigger ass and small waist. But is there really anything I can do to fix it? Not really. I could get surgery, but do I want a fake ass? Not really. When I start having kids do I want to have to take a pass on breast feeding? No. Really all I can do is try to lose weight and hope it comes off or stays on in the right places. Yes I could get a corset to help the waist, but first I need money to do that, so for the time being I have to accept myself for who I am and the body I have. Does wanting to change certain things about my appearance make me insecure? Sure. Sometimes. Everyone is insecure about something in their life be it their body, their job, anything. But I'm I going to let my insecurities upset me or just run around in oversized clothes to hide myself? No. I like being nude. I like being nearly nude. I like oversized sweaters because they're warm and comfortable. If I want to get laid I'll go out and get laid (which has been pretty easy the last couple of years...although finding a woman to fool around with lately has been fairly difficult...People on pof don't read profiles so I keep getting offers from guys or couples).
But anyway, the way I see it we are made to feel insecure so that we spend money. We buy makeup, pills, food, vitamins, clothes, pumps, plastic surgery, etc, etc just to feel better about ourselves but do we? Is anyone ever actually happier after all that? No. We are constantly told by the media we aren't good enough. We're too fat, too skinny, too tall, too short, our tits are too small, our tits are too big, etc, etc. Makeup just makes us look like whores or teachers, and we're told so. Pills won't make us happy. Food will only make us fat which makes us more insecure and then we count calories and carbs and fat and all we think about all day long is food and calories and fat and carbs making us even more insecure. And who benefits from our insecurities? Big companies that just want our money. And they get it! They will always win unless people start accepting themselves for who they are. But the majority of us never will.
